Classes are going really well.  We had our first design project and presentation last night that went really well.  My heart is daily rejuvenated as I am doing this.  It feels good to be doing my passion!

It’s interesting- my teacher and another woman in class (Nadine) really remind me of my mom.  They are in both their 50’s and both have different qualities that remind me of her.  It’s interesting to think that this might have been what my mom would be like right now- a beautiful, talented woman in her 50’s with 3 grown daughters. 

Last night in class, memories and thoughts of my mom flooded my heart as I watched Nadine talk during her presentation.  I was instantly drawn to her, as she is just so naturally a mom.  You know the type- they just exuded “mom-ness.”  I like being around her, as I soak up that stuff.   Tears actually came up, and I felt so silly sitting there, crying as this woman was giving her presentation (I am laughing a little bit now about that). 

On the way home, I was talking to my mom, just letting her know what I was up to…and asking if she was proud of me.  She always told me to be strong and to follow my dreams.  I think she is looking down and smiling. 

Today at work, some co-workers and I were talking about random stuff, and one of them asked, “well, how is your mom with a computer?” It caught me so off guard, and I didn’t know what to say, so I just changed the subject, and pointed out that my dad was great with computers.  In the almost 14 years that she has been gone I have never thought “how would my mom be with a computer today”?  He was so sweet, and IM’d me later saying he had no idea and he felt so bad.  Of course, I totally understand, and don’t want any pity- but I sat here at my desk crying.  Sometimes it seems as though she hasn’t been gone for very long.

A most beautiful song...this is one of those songs that I can listen to over and over again: http://youtube.com/watch?v=2cXJE2HUPe0

Here's the lyrics:

Come and catch a fire baby, don't let me fade away, don't let me fade away

Come and catch a feeling, it's a electrifying me
With eyes wide open, I'm dreaming
Breathe for me baby, a wake before I'm down
Come and free me baby, a wake before I'm down,
awake before I'm down

Come and touch me baby
I need to be loved
Come and hold me baby
I need to feel loved, I need to feel loved
Come and catch a fire, don't let me fade away
Come and catch a fire baby, don't let me fade away
Come and catch a feeling, it's a electrifying me
Eyes wide open, I'm dreaming
Pray for me baby, awake before I'm down
Pray for me baby, awake before I'm down
Come and touch me baby
I need to belong
Come and hold me baby
I need to feel loved
I'm in love, in love, in love
I'm in love, in love, in love
I'm in love
I'm in love

I'm in love, in love, in love
I'm in love, in love, in love
I'm in love
I'm in love

Come and touch me baby
I need to be loved
Come and hold me baby
I need to feel loved (repeat)

Ok, today is a better day...I have recovered and feel like my usual happy self- which is a good thing.  I am going horseback riding today, and am very excited about that.  Tomorrow I am going to hang out with Marcelle and the baby, so that is cool. 

Yea for Fridays!!!

I had an awesome weekend with Michael.  We went up to Montrose to see our dear friends, Stacey and Seth, and had a fabulous time with them.  They recently moved up there, as Seth is the new DA for Montrose. I miss Stace so much.  She is my very good friend, as well as a surrogate big sis (which is nice for me since I don't have an older sister).  ;)  We got in late Friday nite, and hung out, drank cofee, and caught up on life. Saturday, we went to Ouray and hiked Box Canyon Falls, which was breathtaking.  Ouray itself is so beautiful!  If you have never visited, I highly encourage it!  That night Stace and I cooked, and she shared her famous "Pot Sal" (potato salad) recipe, and then she and I proceeded to beat the boys twice at Pictionary. :) I helped Stace decorate her new house on Sunday, and then we headed back to Denver that afternoon.  We had to stop at the Coyote Cantina, which is an awesome Mexican Restaurant near Buena Vista.  Very, very good Mexican food! 

Here's some pics of the trip:

I just had such a great time driving up there.  It was so nice to just leave all my problems and worries at home, and just get away, you know?  We had tons of time to hang out, talk, laugh, look at the scenery, take pics...it was just so awesome.  We are so excited to think about the possibilty of us moving up there some day, and having some land in the country with a view of Mt. Antero- or maybe live in Ouray??  He is really incredible and I am a very lucky girl. 

I wanted to share my latest interior design project...my home office. I went with a taupe and blue motif with bubbles- or it is dot's?? :)  With some curtains and candles, it will be complete!  I included pics here, but the full album is at this link: http://www.kodakgallery.com/Slideshow.jsp?mode=fromshare&Uc=kmhfsxn.5yolxgtb&Uy=givdlc&Ux=0

 So, we thought Cella was having the baby last night and we were at the hospital from 9pm-3am.  I was so excited because I thought the baby was coming!!!  She was having mild contractions, but the doc’s would not induce her.  L  So, we are waiting until Monday, and at that time they “might” induce.  Who knows, maybe something will happen today- I hope so.  J  I got some good pics of the “trial run”….:) Seeing all of this makes me want to have a baby.  I can’t believe I am actually saying that- haha.  I can only hope that I would look as fabulous as she does!!

No word on Marcelle’s baby yet.  Baby=refuse to come out…LOL.  She will probably get induced tomorrow, so I am excited about it.  I want to see this little guy!  She thinks she will name him Ethan.

Also, something that stuck me as funny- well I don’t know if funny is the right word.  I was helping my dad write his profile for Match.com.  It’s a weird experience trying to have an objective perspective when helping him with this, because there is part of me that wants to write what a great dad he is, but I am like, but he’s not looking for a mom for us, he’s looking for someone for him…weird.  I am trying to help my dad get hooked up with someone.  That’s just weird (but cool- because he is dating, which I think is good for him). 

Want to know another cool thing?  Just this morning before I knew he was writing his profile, I was saying a prayer for him that the Universe will put a woman in his path that he can have a lot of fun with, and one in which he is very compatible with- and then when I came into work, he had sent me an email asking me to look over what he had wrote for his profile!  I think that’s synchronicity at its best.

Ok, I did it, I just officially signed up for my class, starting August 20th!! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

A couple of weeks ago, we helped our friends, Stacey and Seth, move up to Montrose.  On the way there, we passed through Salida, Colorado.  I know this is where I want to end up some day, with my 1000 acres, horses, and rolling hills.  How I am going to pay for it? Who knows...but it is GORGEOUS.

Well, I am finally going to take my 1^st Interior Design class at ACC this fall.  It’s Fundamentals of Interior Design. 

Funny...I never used to be so afraid to do something new.  What I have to draw forth from myself is the courage to do something different than what I am used to.  I know that I have no shortage of courage.  I have demonstrated the ultimate in courage- to go on with my life and make something of myself in the face of the worst tragedy I could have ever experienced.  This alone should assure me that I can overcome whatever obstacles come my way.  As Dr. Wayne Dyer has said do not let your inner candle flame go out- though the worst goes before you!

"If one advances confidently in the direction of your own dreams and endeavors to live the life you have imagined then success, however you define it, will arrive in your life in sufficient amounts to satisfy all your needs."

Now, I just need to start advancing!